| Tuesday, October 11th, 2005 |
| 11:07 pm |
I only go to bed to wash cloths.... The End... |
| Monday, October 10th, 2005 |
| 10:59 pm |
GameStudio is the devil. Like C++ my ass. RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I can make a retarded looking level in it easily though. I just can't make any code. I'm bored and sleep is bad. Fairys for all!!!! Perhaps I should draw you a flip book with my exspensive crayola crayon. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU SPELL CROWN!!!! OMGZOR you have the same chance of getting a royal flush as you do of getting any other card combination in a deck! AHHHHH, 8am class in which I do nothing but listen to people give speeches about nothing sucks. we could atleast tell them how much their speech sucked before we left. then I would get some enjoyment from it. I worked 5 hours and 10 mins this week! IM RICHHHHHHH!!!!! |
| Wednesday, September 21st, 2005 |
| 2:44 am |
Oh noes the ps2 wire is still at saras.. good thin I have My RFU converter! HAHAHAHAHA! nothing to do late at night and I don't get tired anymore. mewwwwwwww... Blehhhhhh |
| Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 |
| 1:39 am |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhh I'm bored. Eagles lost. Damn the birds. I have a TV with cable next to my computer. I now have no reason to leave this room other then my iPod shuffle. What does the i stand for? it can't mean I cause then it would be IPod. I haven't played shining tears yet. But I will tommorow. Cause my world is down. It went boom but will be back better then ever... in theory. If only I could gamble, watch football and play video games at the same time. I suspose you can throw drunk sex in there somewhere but ya know how that is. All these people are taging me with surveys and stuff on LJ. Don't they know that I rarely do them. Don't they know I have so little life that doing them could give me a life and thus ruin everything I haven't done? What the hell is a projection TV? Hooking a PS2 up to it could kill it... don't do this... its mean. Tommorow well see if its time to retire the name Chaz. Who knows. It could be that good? |
| Tuesday, August 16th, 2005 |
| 6:18 am |
I hate Maya
Apart from the random deleting of objects, impossible to navigate menus, grainy renders, random closings without warning and monkey like hypershader its not a bad program. I just pulled an all nighter and didn't get a ton done. But it was something. It was more a night of learning then of doing cause the program still confuses me. I think I fixed the grainyness 6 inches 6 inches *cry cry cry* so bored no more work no more schoolllllll. The cleaning people move fast... |
| Monday, July 25th, 2005 |
| 9:38 am |
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| Wednesday, July 20th, 2005 |
| 8:18 am |
Dear jounral... Crytin sucks... P.S. HAHAHAHAHAHA |
| Thursday, June 30th, 2005 |
| 12:45 am |
I did another good deed today. Crytin agroed a repop while master looting and wiped the raid. And if I hadn't had Druid resed him the mage that won the roll for the bast staff in the game(damn him) wouldn't have gotten it. |
| Thursday, June 23rd, 2005 |
| 1:00 am |
its 2am and I have to wake up at 7:30... I think. Maybe my class it at 9 not 9:30 oh well. Not like I washed cloths anyway. My pet lady bug died of natural causes. I did my 2nd good deed for the year today. I got 2 transpasses by accident today cause the septa guy wasnt paying attention and gave me 2. So you know when that happens there is gonna be someone asking for a token on the trolly even though that only happens once or twice of year. And of course there was. So she asked me if I had an extra token along with everyone else and I said no since I didnt wana give her any of my tokens. Its like one of those fate things where our tested and its a freak happenin that things end upthat way. So as I left I put the extra trans pass on the seat in clear view of the girl askin for a token. I don't think she saw it before I left the trolly and she may just think I left it by accident cause shes that stupid. But maybe if she sees it shell realize I ment to leave it. I know I have to be all cool and let fate run its course. I figure if I was ment to give it to her she'll see it whether I gave it to her directly or indirectly. Is that a good enough topic of conversation for everyone? Oh ya you know that was a kick ass move I pulled. Some day it will catch up to me and ill be rewarded. You know karma and shit. Maybe ass ticklin. Ya never know. Oh ya thats pretty random... is that random enough to talk about. Ya so I do have shit to talk about. Maybe I just don't want to talk about it. Why? Who the hell knows why. And no im not mad. Maybe I get bored of my own voice. Im crazy all day talkin about crazy shit with everyone all day and maybe when I come home I don't Wana talk about crazy shit any more. Im crazy all day and theres only so much of that me I can take. Cause its the selfish me. So I come home and I play Wow and I talk to my dad about game shit. During the day I usally talkabout game shit with pat and martin to so im tired of that. So what do I do. I go on raids I go into instances and I save lives. I'm a healer, I like bein a healer. I like bein needed and not havin to be selfish about getting that attention. People benifit from me bein around usaly more then I benifit from them being around. Sure I get some items but alot of the raids I go on I have no real reason to go on other then a random person was shouting out for a healer and a good time. Do I wana talk about my day online. No. I wana be Chaz online. I know the random chit chat matters to you. Matters to me to but it doesn't matter to Chaz. Everytime Ben askes me how things are going while im in game I tell him about the instances and items I got. Even though im pretty sure thats not what he really means to ask. But thats the answer he gets. You want to talk in game talk to me in character. Lets go on an epic quest to undercity at 2 am in a 2 man raid. Lets go do something. Sure there isn't alot left for me to do. But I like doing things for other people in game. Sure in real life I don't talk about stuff like who would win in a fight between a fire ant and a miniture unicorn anymore. I don't know why I don't. I don't know what I like talkin about in real life anymore. I like bein drunk I know that cause I don't have to think about crap like that. I don't know when it got this way, I don't know how long its gonna stay. Every week it's the same in her room that's why I came. Here I go, with her again our rendezvous never seem to end. I know where I'll be, I'll make this confession. Back in her bed for another goddamn Session. Look tommorow is my long day at school and and and Im gonna get less then 5 hours of sleep AWSOME! I can't let it bother me. |
| Monday, June 20th, 2005 |
| 11:30 pm |
Slowly completing all my item sets on wow. I'v Pretty much finished my Tanking set and im getting close to finishing my healing set and PVP set. Just got my new healing hammer today. Im not really going for the crazy insane molten core stuff cause its hard to get into successful raids if your not in one of the top 3 guilds. Every time I see a person from the night watch they always have over 2 peices of epic armor on. But whatever going to MC is pretty boring cause I just 100% heal there. Alterac vally sucks ass on my server cause there arent enough horde. And that are all RP pansys. Although people were saying one of the main horde guilds that usaly there wanst there cause of a MC raid. Then again not like anyone in LJ is gonna read this or care cause they prob have no idea what im talking about. Awsome. Its only 12:30 and im going to bed... im being goodish... considering I have to wake up at 7:30.................................... .......... |
| Tuesday, May 31st, 2005 |
| 1:30 am |
The Alimo
So long and goodnight. Everybody going to the party, gonna have a good time. Blast off its party time. Where the fuck are you! Hope everyone had a good time at the party, I did. Don't worry I didn't have take that hard of a hit for it. Although next time I would appreciate not having a pissed covered ragged left in my house whoever did it =P meetin Darren and Candi was cool.They're a little diffrent then I thought they would be but whatever. Poeple are usely diffrent in person then they are online. Prob woulda been better if Darren hand't been out real early in the night and if they had gotten here before everyone else. But whatever. Fun was had. (just don't feel up my GF again while she's drunk =P) Lots of work that I don't want to do. I have ideas and stuff I just can't create most of them. I mostly blame it on my first 2 terms of 3d when I had the stand in teacher guy that couldn't teach. So now you can see that everyone that had him's stuff isnt anywhere near as good as everyone elses just cause we don't know how to do it and don't have time to learn and do it. CS makes no sense again. I hate him. I was killed earlyer tonight. I was even thinkin I should be on the look out when I went into school. DAMN YOU WILL! But it was cool I got to go to 7-11 and get tomato sauce for my death and puke it up in the middle of the computer room. I dono if I'll get the best death award but who knows. I won't be getting a rank up in PVP this week I'll prob end up losing a rank. I geuss im getting kinda tired of world of warcraft. PVP is fun so im gonna give it till battle grounds comes out. Hopefully that will revive it for me. I still play alot. Its not becuse im obsessed with the game. It really becuase im not obsessed with my DIGM work. Alot of it just doesn't interest me. The fact that I didn't get into the gaming class next term doesn't help. I feel like if I got a DIGM job I would be fired becuase im not really good at anything weve done in the major. Im just ok at it all. Oh well hopefully later Ill get to do more gaming stuff but I don't think ill be able to do any before my first coop =/ 1 more song in the MTV top 10 then time for bed. Saras been very evil lately. Enough said. AWSOME! |
| Wednesday, May 25th, 2005 |
| 6:18 pm |
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| Thursday, May 12th, 2005 |
| 1:26 am |
X-X
Killing Onyxia > sex... almost... Killing Onyxia and getting item > sex... I will never know... |
| Saturday, April 23rd, 2005 |
| 3:41 am |
Had a good day of PVPin on wow. Stayed up till 3:30 playing cause I found a good group of alliance and horde to work with. Got 68 kills most of them good clean ones and not ganks. Im happy they added the honor system cause I game was really getting boring. Instances hopping can be fun but when there is a 1/80 chance of you getting the item you need for every 3+ hour instance it starts to suck. The horde played well tonight but I think by 1:30 and after we were the better players. By then we no longer had a large raid. we had about 5-7 people while the horde had 10+ . They were so used to be ing out numbered and playing defensivly that we were able to hold them inside their town and trade kills with them for over an hour without them making any noticable gain. Eventaly they got a few more players and we started to fall be hind a but so we reatreated. Horde got a few free kills then but after that we won most of the smaller skermishes. After doing hit and runs in the open field and doing a few 1 on 1 out there I stopped playing. I figured I had killed them all so many times I prob wasn't getting honor points anymore ... that and it was 3:30... lalala |
| Tuesday, April 19th, 2005 |
| 6:07 pm |
Things to do: Viscom thumbnails - 60 thursday cs assignment - thursday night director midterm - sunday night director final proposal - sunday night 3d animation/ material - thursday 3d tutorial - next thursday art mini test - wednesday cs and art midterm - next friday cs prelab - friday play world of world craft with new patch - Never |
| Saturday, April 16th, 2005 |
| 2:23 am |
I write this post now drunk because I think it will be more truthful. I thought that line up over a lon gtime and I belive it to be a lie. I don't know why and don't care why. I beleive what I said in my recent posts was caused by my mother. However she is not to blame! Yes she made me think off these things. But she did not make me think these things! It is my own fault if anyones. While drunk I shed tears. Or atelast wish I did. For I seem incapable to sheding tears. I want my sara back. I want to hold her in my arms. I want her to beat the shit out of me for what I did to her. If you ever see me again Sara you have the right to beat the shit out of me. And if I go WTF! I said that while I was drunk you can say you have to take responsiblilty for what you say drunk! Cause its true. I said it while I was drunk. But I also feel thas the only time I'm completly truthful. I fear being loved I admit it. I don;t want to hurt anyone. If I could put the feeling I just felt into words you would understand everything. It was so wonder ful. God I love you. I know that feeling changes from time to time but its always there. It may not always be a constant but its because im scared. When my mom said how are you going to support yourself I had no answer. Dyou know how that feels!? You want to leave but you cant!? I just want to leave and be with you. its like I was sitting there and just went tushee... I can't... I can't do anything by myself... I can't be with the women I love so why should I be withher. She folled me. not you my mom. I hate he3r now. I woulndt tell her anything that happened. I realized that she enjoyed my sorrow. she enjoyed that she had won over you. I don't know what to say. other then you have every right to beat the shit out of me for even listening to her. I don;t want you to take me back. Thats how bad I feel. You may have your laundry list but my faults although fewer are much worse. I know ther eis a kniffe behind me but i ahave toi resist using it. I want to care your name in my skin. Just to show you how much I love you. Botachelli said a figures outside should reflect his internal emoution so I died my hair blue. I admit it I lost you. I shouldn't have you back but I know you'll come back. And for that reason you can't come back. You can't! Please don't bother with me. You can find better then me. I know you can. I cant even grantee that this wont happen again. What this is the 3rd time its happened. Im to weak im to scared im too pathertic. I know2 you dont want me to use the knife. but I want to so bad. I wiash. I wiash I could just go away with you... could you cosign for me. could you support me? just to get waway! I have to get away. Its like torture. I dont show it I know I dont youmay even think I like living here. But I dont god dont I. I want to be with you every night. I want to say im sorry everynight. And I think I will just to that Ican eveen begin to make up what I said in my ealier posts. It was my moms words I know that . She got me... I let her get me bauce I Was scared. I shouldnt have thye werent all LIES! Its all true! please beleive me it is! I cant have you not beleive what I say. I cant. If that happens I might as well kill myself. PLease if you read this tommorow/saterday respond with something. I need to see you. I know when im not drunk things may change on the outside. but on the inside they wont. Im sorry I cant show emotions outwardly. Im just so sorry. I sat outside waiting for you to come but you sdidnt. Then right as I wnt inside to read you came. I heard the door. and I didn;t go. Im so sorry. I should have atleast goneto talk to you. I should have shouted something done something anything. im going to go now. I can't keep talking cause Ill kill myself If I do. I just keep feeling worse and worse about myself and resort to the knife like I once did. Please remember this your never wrong and... what really hurts me is baby your a good girl and I had no right... I really want to make things right because without you by my side girl im so lonely... Its nots just a song its how I feel. I dont deserve you. I know im horrible. To say that I didnt mean things. I did mean them. I was just scared... |
| Friday, April 15th, 2005 |
| 6:02 pm |
well I missed her. I wanted to talk to her before she left... |
| 9:37 am |
Crazy people say everything they think... damn im crazy... |
| 9:05 am |
I'm coming out of my cage and I’ve been doing just fine gotta be down because I want it all. Now they’re going to bed and my stomach is sick and it’s all in my head but she’s touching his... Now, he takes off her dress. Now, let me go. I just can’t look its killing me. Jealousy, turning saints into the sea. Swimming through sick lullabies... It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss. Now were going to bed and my stomach is sick and it’s all in my head but I'm touching her... Now, I takes off her dress. Now, let me go. It started out with a kiss how did it end up like this... Choking on my alibi... I never... I never... I never... We were just a good thing. We were such a good thing. Make it go away with just a word. Watching her disappear. Oh no no no no no... If you can hold on, hold on, I wanna stand up, I wanna let go. You know, you know - no you don't, you don't. Another head ache, another heart break. These changes ain't changing me, I may still be the cold-hearted boy I used to be. All these things that I've done, If you can hold on... I can't even recognise myself. So if the answer is no can I change your mind? My love is blind? The sun is gone before it shines. Should I change your mind... I believe in you and me. I want to come to find you even if it takes me all night. And I won't forget you at least I'll try. You took me by surprise. I never knew, I never knew. But it's alright... |
| Thursday, April 14th, 2005 |
| 11:29 pm |
Dont know what to say dont know what I want maybe in the morning Ill think of something... get it... morning? HAHAHA! |
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